What im feeling now?
Sick and tired of falling in love, or even interested in someone, cos everytime i did, i still wont get that someone.
Really, im tired of having this feeling. It never please me. From the first person im in love until now.
But, you are out there somewhere right? I hope it will be worth meeting you one day, whoever you are, my mystery woman.
Mad...just move on and forget about her. Like what your friends said,there's still a lot more fish out there.
It's a clear message that she wants me out of her life. Unfollow me on ig?
Heh. Another fail and pathetic part of my love story. As usual,it will end up one sided, and as usual,i wont get the gilr im interested in.
Oh so typical of me.
People say, stop finding a gf desperately and one day that special girl will come.
Some say,if you just dont find anyone, that special girl wont be able to find you too.
So my guts say...just do what you think is right.
I've unfriend you on fb,and im sure you dont know about it, of course, it'a cos you nvr really see me. All i left now is your ig and soon i believe i need to unfollow you on ig too...
My love life sux. It's always a one sided love, and i dont know what i did to deserve all this painful feelings,but i believe that all this happened for a reason and it serve me a lesson.
You replied but you replied to end it there.
Everyday,i would always think of you. Thinking how is it gonna be if i'm besides you now, how warmth it is to be with you, how much fun and smile i will make with you and just how does it feel to see your smile face to face. But now, i guess i shld just move on? Forget you? Unfriend you in fb? Unfollow your ig?
I dont know anymore....
When i look at japan, new zealand, places that i want to travel, i would think of going there with you by my side, but it seems that's just wishful thinking.
I hope one day,our path will meet each other....
Ok. I've done my part.
It's ok if you wont reply. No,it's not ok, it's painful, but what can i do. I can't force you to talk to me, pay attention to me and all.
Heh,i guess shld really move on...? Unfollow her ig, then slowly, one day, her fb? I think that's wise. So im gonna wait until tomorrow morning? 😿😿
Shaz...am i really invisible to you? Am i really not even worth even a few seconds of your attention? No likes, not from fb,ig or anywhere.
If i really am, just show me that you are going out with somebody. Because,only then,can i really stop hurting myself.
You stole my heart.
I must be the most stupidest guy ever when it comes to love.
I want to see you.
I want to talk to you.
Chat with you.
Know you better, at least as a friend first.
Can't you give me any of this?
😔😔
It's been a while.
Im still not able to forget you silver. But i need this to go somewhere. It cannot stay like this forever. It needs to end, or develop into something else.
Sunday night,hari raya night, i will message her and apologize for being an annoying bugger who tried to win/attract her attention. Maybe im going to tell her my honest feeling,and even tell her im going to unfriend her in fb and also maybe instagram too.
I need to do this or else,i will be swallowed too deep by this illusions that i've created.
Silver,no shaz, im really interested in you and really want to be friends with you and hopefully slowly we'll go out,and even marry you.
I cant bear to carry on like this. My heart is just too heavy now.
Met one of my close poly fren, a girl.
She told me i shld just let go of silver and go find others else i will only continue to hurt myself. Part of me knows that she's true but part of me also knows that it's not easy for me to be so attracted to a girl.
Is this suffering of one sided love worth it? Or shld i just heed my friend's advice?
Whatever it is i will always pray the best for you.
